sometimes i think
that i should walk away
leave my thoughts behind
forget about today

it's so cold at night
that even sleeps evades me
and when the morning comes
i question my reality

sometimes i feel like
everyone is watching
seeing me struggle
i can hear them laughing

no one said that
i would testify
these moments of weakness
i cannot deny

and i don't know
if i can wait any longer
and i don't know
if i can pray anymore
my greatest efforts
have all been in vain
i'm seeking sanctity
to ease my pain

time seems to be
my greatest enemy
the harder i try
the more it taunts me

i never thought that
i would have to pretend
that i'm not trying
to bring this to an end