It’s hard to sleep at night when you’re cold.
You’re mind wanders and thinks of warmth.
You layer blankets, put more clothes on,
just so you can stay warm.
And in the warmth, you find sleep.

But an empty heart is always cold.
When you are disconnected from the one you love,
your heart feels cold.
And no amount of blankets or layering
will help you sleep.

You close your eyes and try to imagine
she is breathing next to you.
You touch her for a moment
suddenly everything becomes
warm again.

You call yourself a fool
for ever thinking that it could be
too warm at night.

But sleep does not come when your heart lacks warmth.
All you can do is hope that the night passes quickly
and the morning light will start a new day.

And you will begin that day
and carry out the motions
you always do,
smile when you’re supposed to.
You tell everyone else
everything is fine.
No one really needs to know
how cold it is at night.
No one needs to know
how much you miss her.

You just hope that she knows.